Life is short.

Just when I think it's time to celebrate something else happens.

Something bad.
Something sad.
Something unpredictable.

May her rest in peace.

The ocean.

I'm afraid of ocean. It's too big that I feel lost when I look at it. You see nothing or all the things you see are the same. Terrifying? Yes. Even with the presence of full moonlight, the darkness doesn't seem to fade.

Day and night do have a huge influence on the ocean. But that doesn't mean things that happen at night cannot happen during the day. Ocean is big and it's deep. You stand on nothing but the Archimedes' Principle. Despite the theory, people still get drown, don't they?

I used to like ocean. The night ocean terrifies me a lot.
Much much more than I can imagine.

Discreeeeet.

Forget the extra e's.

What does discreet mean?

Deep breath..

It means judicious in one's conduct or speech, especially with regard to respecting privacy or maintaining silence about something of a delicate nature; prudent; circumspect.

Phew...long definition.

What does it has to do with anything?

Life sometimes is about being discreet. We are surrounded by people from all walks of life. They have stories and background of their own. Not to mention the life experiences they have had to become what they are today. Even though we have people saying we are all the same, we are after all different. Human being have the nature of putting themselves above others to protect themselves from being harm. The more they know of you, they will look for a way to keep up with you. And that is where being discreet comes in. Sometimes keeping your mouth shut do more good than harm in the process. And talk what's right at the right time brings more harmony than chaos.

"Everyone wears some kind of mask, so you must look closely to find the truth that lies beneath."

"And then there are those who let their mask slip. If you look into their eyes you'll see who they really are and exactly what they are capable of."

Maybe I'm watching too much movies.

Nicol David - World No. 1

Let's watch video.
I uploaded this half a year ago, did this video 3 years ago.

And for what it's worth, our very own Datuk Nicol David said she liked it. Ha ha.
Say all you want about why she said that because it doesn't really matter.

All that matter is she's still the World No.1 in women's squash.

Multitasking.

I'm multitasking. Feeling dizzy the whole day.
Guys are not good at multitasking after all. I see girls doing their work and talk at the same time and they do perfectly fine. Not that I'm talking and working. I'm working and working. These few months I begin to realize that even though I appear to be studying I'm like my other friends as well, working like hell.

This multitasking is taking me nowhere. I need to stop.
Doing one thing at a time. One baby step at a time. Sucking milk from bottle before drinking from a cup.

If I can survive this month, I can try running.
If I can survive next month, I can try running faster.
If I can survive the next month, I'll sit down in a nice restaurant and reward myself.

I'm feeling sleepy. But something inside me tells me that I cannot sleep. Not now. Later.

Speaking of multitasking, I should get back to work.

Take Me To Your Heart.

There was a girl...there's always a girl.
This one is different.

I thought if I take my time and she takes her time then everything will fall into place. But no. It didn't. It fell all over the place. How I wished I had the courage to tell her...that...I...

it's too late...

I didn't see this coming.
If only I have another chance, I'd do it differently.
Nah...I'll spoil it anyway.
Maybe I don't deserve her.

It's better this way.
It's better this way...

Back for good.

I missed a lot of things, haven't I?
Looking back, it is just a part of my journey.

I smiled.
I fell. Real hard.
I cried.
I rose.
I laughed.

Despite the many bad things that happened, I appreciate all of it. Optimist is what I am. Even though sometimes being a pessimist means not having to take risks, I am willing to explore challenges ahead of me.

I'm learning from the past mistakes and moving on at the same time. The happy memories are kept close to keep me moving. When moving is too slow, I take a leap.

I have to admit that I do long for blogging. Blogging ain't my cup of tea. But I do like taking a few sips once in a while.

And since I'm back, I guess I'm back for good.

Intro-vert.

It's been a while...I've been thinking to quit this blog. The viewers dropped almost 85% and I'm blaming myself for being lazy or maybe it's the fact that I'm after all a person who likes to keep everything to myself. Viewers increase when there are frequent updates on your blog and when there are no updates, the viewers don't come back. Not that I have a loyal readers or anything, this blog is going down sooner or later. I guess the introverts in me starts to kick in.

I can't help it.

To my loyal readers (if there's any) and friends out there, if I'm back, I'll be back for good. If I'm not, you know where to find me. Thanks for the support all this while.