Wake me up when September ends.

"It's the end of September and I still don't feel like waking up, literally.

I've done a lot this month. Or I should say I've gained a lot this month."

28th September 2009

This post was composed last year and it never got published. The title is a song from Green Day and my birthday coincidentally falls in this month. I don't mean I sleep the whole month and do nothing. It's a month I wanna do a lot of things that most of the time never gets done. But most of time, it never gets done anyway. Lolx.

So, please, God, if you do exist, wake me up when September ends. Because if I'm still sleeping after this September, I'd be sleeping until the end of the year. Then my life won't be good and life isn't that good already. It will change. Nothing is permanent but change.

This year, this time.

It's the time of the year again...my birthday!!! huhu
Nothing special, really.

Last year I gave myself a week off in an island where no communications from the outside world except that part of the island. This year, I'm going up a hill with a friend. I'm going to give myself something holy. I'm going to meditate. Sounds nice eh. For some they think I'm going through some crisis or too many karma. No crisis. No karma. I need to come back to myself and think clearly. Too much external input has done tremendous damage to my brain. Thus, no output. I need an output. 3 days ain't enough but that's all I have.

I need to heal myself. I'm healing myself.

In search for an answer.

There are a lot of questions unanswered. The harder we try to find out, the more likely it won't get answered. Take life as it comes and do the best we can until the answer surfaces. There's these saying that I don't like but holds a certain truth, 'ignorance is bliss' or 'what you don't know cannot hurt you'. But it keeps you wonder all the time. We stop wondering. We move forward. When you look back, it doesn't really matter anymore. You smiled at how foolish you were. If given a chance to go back, would you do it differently? I won't. It is because of the past that I am what I am now. We cannot deny the past. We learn from the past. The tears are not wasted. You dropped your tears knowing it'll be over soon. Hang on. Live on. There are better futures ahead.

Just woke up from an afternoon nap and I'm feeling groggy. I write whatever comes to my mind. My mind is not straight now. Haha.


Learn from the past. Live at the present. Have a better future.
Wake me up when September ends.