Intro-vert.

It's been a while...I've been thinking to quit this blog. The viewers dropped almost 85% and I'm blaming myself for being lazy or maybe it's the fact that I'm after all a person who likes to keep everything to myself. Viewers increase when there are frequent updates on your blog and when there are no updates, the viewers don't come back. Not that I have a loyal readers or anything, this blog is going down sooner or later. I guess the introverts in me starts to kick in.

I can't help it.

To my loyal readers (if there's any) and friends out there, if I'm back, I'll be back for good. If I'm not, you know where to find me. Thanks for the support all this while.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

A simple 'sorry' carries with it a great abundance of meaning in this festive season.
Sometimes forgiveness is not easy but once it is done, you could have never imagined the result it has.


Here I would like to wish all my Muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Happy 24.

This kid celebrates his 24th birthday today...

He has a lot to prove. It's going to be hard time for him. Hopefully the wish he wished for will be granted.

Happy Birthday!

Happy Merdeka!

No grand celebration this year.
And it doesn't mean we are not celebrating this significant and historical event.

Happy 51st Merdeka, Malaysia.

Public holiday for Penang.

Tomorrow is a public holiday for Penang to make way for the by-election in Permatang Pauh. I'm not a big fan of politics.

It was announced by our Chief Minister Mr. Lim Guan Eng last night when I was busy watching the closing ceremony of Beijing Olympic 2008. The holiday is too sudden. I didn't even have time to plan not to go back to the buggy campus. So, I decided to go to school like usual. Big sacrifice!!!

But seriously, I've had enough of holidays. One week during the convocation week. Half day off here and there which adds up to one and a half day off last week. I need to get back to work. No more attitude problem!

Speaking of convo...can anyone spot me in the picture below?

USM 38th Convocation

Huhu...guess what?!
I've graduated!!!

This is it! A big relieve and a bit proud of myself too. Keke.
It was hard and then it wasn't that hard too. Whatever...

Shaking hands with Pro-Chanselor

It's the happiest day in my life, so far.

What my friend said was right, convocation is over, we've got to move on, good or bad, life goes on.

I took a bunch of photos with my friends. Too bad I forgot to switch my phone back to normal mode. It was in silent mode and damn no vibration as well! I missed out on a few of my friends. But no regrets. Life is not perfect. It is the imperfection that make us appreciate it even more. To those I took picture with, of course I do appreciate you laaa....

I am going to take pictures with my super old friends this Saturday morning and with family at night. Hopefully the plan to go back to the buggy campus to take pictures goes well.

Fingers crossed.

bz..

I'm busy with convocation.
Friends are coming back.

I'm busy watching Olympics.
None of my business but it's once every 4 years event. Special event needs our attention.

I'm busy with a lot of things.

That's why I'm taking a week off.
When I'm back I'll upload loads of pictures.
I'll stop here...bz

Decent? Think again...

"You are the most decent guy I've ever met" says my friend.


"You should really reflect upon yourself" she added.

And you wonder what that means. It should be a good comment especially when it's coming from a girl. But when she asked to reflect upon yourself, that's when things gone awry.

I'll tell you what she meant.
Nope. I don't think I'm telling anyone.
Think yourself...

I'm sorry i'm bad.

I always believe in first impression.
They look at you for the first time and they trust you to be a Mr.Nice Guy.
Of course, what we do after that counts as well.

If you do something real bad, your good-first-impression will be gone. And it takes like forever to gain back what you've lost.
Okay, I'm exaggerating. It sure needs a lot of effort.

But, don't we need more time to actually know who a person is?
Just because he/she is nice the first time you met doesn't mean he/she can never be evil.

Don't judge a book by its cover.

Looks can be deceiving.

Yea...looks can be deceiving. The next time you see a pretty girl, don't talk to her. She might cheat all your money and run away with other pervert. Tell me where she is and let me go deal with her. I'll make her a good person. Keke.

I'm sorry I'm bad.

To All Graduating Students Of 2008.

Okay...this is just a copy-and-paste from the website. But who cares?
Happy reading!!!



Message from the Honorable Minister of Higher Education...

On this auspicious and meaningful Convocation Day, I would like to take the opportunity to congratulate all of you for the success achieved and a work well done. I hope that this success to which you have placed great dedication to and worked so hard for will have a great significance in your life as well as the life of your family. It is also my solemn hope that you will continue to upgrade yourself in terms of knowledge and expertise so that you will become more productive and a great asset to the country.

We must remember that the world we live in is full of change; and the challenges we face are many. For this reason we must be on the alert and we must take the necessary steps to ensure that the national education system is ever relevant and that the graduates from the institutions of higher learning in this country are of quality. With this in mind, a research is already underway to get the perceptions and opinions of every graduating student from all the institutions of higher learning in the country on their experiences while they were still studying. Based on the valuable feed back that you will be providing through this research, the Ministry as well as your own institution will get a more accurate picture of your learning environment. This in turn will help us to identify weaknesses that could be remedied in a more strategic manner.

The Ministry as well as your University values the sincere and accurate feedback that you will be providing us. The Ministry also hopes that all of you will continue to assist us in the future in providing your opinion through follow-up questionnaires which we hope will help to build a workforce of greater caliber that can assist in the progress of the country.

I would like again to wish you success in your future undertakings.

DATO' SERI MOHAMED KHALED NORDIN
Minister of Higher Education

(http://202.186.86.252/kpgv4_en/index.jsp)

The beginning of another beginning.

School reopens this week.

Nope...University reopens this week.

After one week of orientation, the freshies are finally on their own. It was like only yesterday when I first came to University Science Malaysia. There were rarely any trees around. Now, they chopped down trees so that the freshies can plant it again. How ironic. And their excuse is that they want to plant fruit trees. Mangosteen they said.

Picture before they chopped down the trees.

But i guess the reason behind it was to destroy the big red ants. It so happens that the idea of planting something that can be eaten crossed their mind.

It's been 2 months since our batch left uni and most of them had already landed on a good job. But for some people like me, we stay.
We stay to fight.
It's not easy when friends are working and get promoted and we stay as green as we were 4 years ago to continue studies.

My working friends is supportive though. This is a good thing. Maybe after 2 years they get promoted and they might hire me to work for them. Symbiosis. Haha.

Work experience is important. Qualification is only important for big big company. But with skills and qualification, you can go anywhere.

Final week in final year

Less than 40 days from now, we will be officially graduated. We will receive the transcript we've been dreaded for.

A piece of paper which means recognition.

The next time we see, we'll be wearing a robe.

15th August 2008, 3.30pm, Dewan Tun Syed Putra.
Undergraduates of Year 2004
USM Engineering Campus, School of Mechanical Engineering
Will once again be reunited!!!

To Welcome The Arrival of Voldemort

Yet another options.

Life should be great when you have more than one options.
I let go one, another came.
It's too tempting.

But just when you need a supportive friend to agree with you, they let you down.
There's no one to blame of course. Blame myself for being indecisive.

Or maybe I should stop blaming myself.
Blame them for being inconsiderate.
Yea....you people! Be considerate will ya!

Because if you not, I'm going to crush your dream the next time I see you!

Checking...

Check! Check!
I'm still alive!

This blog is almost dead since I moved back to old buggy campus.
I'll be back. Until there's signal on the stupid free modem, goodbye!

The unofficial graduation.

As of now, 0014, 27th May 2008, the full results of my 4-year course is out!

It was not that bad laaaa....

I can't wait for the graduation day where I get to meet all my friends again. Some chose to avoid but no, I'm going to see all of them and I'm going to congratulate them. Because that day might be the last time I see them in maybe 10 to 20 years to come.

And not forgetting me. Congratulate me!!!
See ya at convo!

The teachers who teach.

Happy Teacher's Day.

To all teachers who have taught me...

To Miss Lion (that's what we used to call her), my kindergarten teacher, who had taught me discipline, I thank you. I still remember the way you'd punished us for misbehaving. You like to pinch both sides of our cheeks but we deserved that.

To Puan Chuah, my Standard One form teacher, thank you for your loving and kindness. We really had a great time that year.

To Mr. Hor, my Standard Two teacher, sorry for being coward to admit the wrongs that I've done. I am a better person now. I am able to stand up and admit whatever mistakes that I've done.

To Mr. Cheang, my Chinese teacher, I still have the cactus you gave us. It was small when you first gave it to me, but now it has grown. And I have grown too.

To Puan Teo, my form teacher from Standard Four to Standard Six, you were a new teacher back then. Yet you gave us your best. You should be happy because most of us turned out to be a good, if not a better person. I'm sure you will be proud of us.



To Miss Bernis, our secondary school counseling teacher, you taught us the philosophy of life. You remind us the existence of conscience in each of us and that we will regret the mistakes we do, and when we do, you remind us to learn from each and every mistakes.

To Miss Tan, my History teacher, you constantly remind us not to call anyone an idiot because we are no better than anyone else and even if we are, we should remain humble.

To Miss Ong, my Form Three form teacher and also my biology teacher, I remember how you punished me and asked me to be more responsible. I'm trying.

To Mr. Arun, my Physics teacher, you inspire me to become a person I have not dreamed of. You always remind us of consistency and that hard work will reap its sow sooner or later. And for that, I promise you I will strive for excellence.


To the teachers who have taught me and not mentioned above, I appreciate everything that you have done for us.

Happy Teachers Day!!!

Twinkle, twinkle, little star.

twinkle, twinkle, little star,
how I wonder what you are,
....
thank you for your tiny spark;
he could not see which way to go,
if you do not twinkle so,
....
how I wonder what you are.
.
.
.
.
.
Remember when I said my final semester will be different?

It is different.
I always had P (Pass) for all my subjects. Even though the subject is hard, I always ended up P. P is too normal that every time I check my results it has no surprises.
No offend but P can mean a grade as low as C!

But it's different now. Instead of all P's, I have a P*. Surprise!!!
It looks nice though.
P* means passed partially. My results hasn't been good the previous semester. It's just that it doesn't have an impact on me.

Now, I fall hard. Real hard that it hurts. But I'm happy about it. Because when you fall this hard it feels like you don't have to give a damn of what happen in the world. All that matters is you and only you. You wanna change the world, first change yourself.

"Be the change you want to see in the world."

-Gandhi

All the complaints and whining don't help at all. Eventually, people around you will find it annoying and the next thing to expect is you are alone to fight back what you've lost - the dignity and the pride. Action always speaks louder than words.

The good news is I don't have to retake.

Decision time.

We get desperate when we have no options in our life. But when we have one, we tend to take it for granted.

Making a decision simply means taking risk of making a wrong decision. At the same time, we are opening an opportunity for ourselves. How many people would think it this way? Very few.

We are too afraid of making mistakes. Life is too short.

"A life spent making mistakes is better than a life spent doing nothing."

- George Bernard Shaw

It's what we learned from the mistakes we do is the most important.
I'm too young to be afraid of anything.

I may be fresh and green but I'm willing to learn.
I may be naive but through tough time, I can be wise.

I decide what I want to be and it is time to decide!

Prioritize.

The first thing I learned after all the troubles I’ve been through. Prioritize on the right thing.

For the past few semesters, I prioritized on the wrong thing.
I’d sleep late rather than attending lectures.
I’d play first rather than do my assignments.
I’d go eat supper rather than completing my last minute assignments.
I’d hang out with my friends rather than keeping those times for my own use. Everyone needs some personal time. It’s just that I might need more.
Prioritize on the right thing is what I believe I need right now.

How do I know which comes first?
I know. Trust me.

Do you know when you are going to pee?
Yes. That’s what I’m trying to say.

I need to change.
Change is inevitable.

The End.

Packed.
Everything.

Moved.
My 'baja hitam' to Penang.

The memories stay forever.

The End.

The Remaining Days...

3 more days and it's sayonara to USM...

One paper left..the final paper
One Viva left..not Perodua Viva..it's a presentation

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.
Have I made enough mistakes these 4 years to be able to learn from it?
Or I've been holding myself back and not make any mistakes which end up learning nothing in the end.

Dare to Fail - A book that I don't mind reading again and again.
It tells stories of famous people who failed and persevere nevertheless to achieve their dreams.

We are constantly searching for the dream that might not even existed.
Dreams gave us hope.
Hope is what drive us to become what we want to be.
But more often than not we are turned down by our own hope.
Sometimes it's hard to come back from a lost battle.

But...
What doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger.



It's not always about the destination, sometimes it's about the journey.
No matter what, keep searching!

=)

My friend TYJ sent me this.


最动人的表情是什么？是微笑。
What is the most touching expression? It's a smile.

处于陌生的环境，一个微笑，就能溶化 所有不安。
A smile can unfreeze the tension when being in an unknown situation.

生活中碰到艰难，一个鼓励的微笑，困难窘迫彷佛有了转圜的空间。
A supportive smile can turn difficulty or obstacles into a hopeful situation in our life.

沮丧的时候，一个理解的微笑，沉到谷底的心也就得到温暖的慰藉了。
When depressed, an understanding smile can warm the heart of others.

微笑的魅力，有时远出意料之外。微笑的力量有多大？
The power of smile is unexpectedly unpredictable. How big can the power of smile be?

Translated by: On


Just smile la.
*click*

*cough* *cough*

I have a lot to write.
And I am writing nothing.
I can't when exams are coming. Notes are piling.

I thought I was well but one night without the cough medicine made me stayed awake for the whole night.

Just got the cough medicine from the clinic in my campus.
Again, I don't like the nurses there.
Sitting at the counter watching TV chatting along with some medical officers.
And when I walked to the counter, they just continued their conversation and ignoring me.

I never like them.
They acted like they are the boss and we are a worker begging them to give us food.
I remembered when I was in first year and I forgot to take my matric card, one of the nurses asked me to walk back to my room and bring the stupid card in order to receive treatment.

How the hell am I supposed to walk back to my room and back to the clinic again under the super hot weather when I am sick?

And I don't like the doctor either.
They are the most conservative doctor I have ever seen.

I'm sick and I'm in no mood to see their angry face when I did nothing wrong.
Anyway, thanks to the nurse who smiled at me just now.
It made me feel much better.

First Year...Jul 2004 ¬ May 2005

It's the final week of my 4 years bachelor's degree.
I have spent 4 years in a place where I wished I hadn't been there in the first place.

Here's how the story begins...

(paused for a few hours)

Think I'll just put pictures...hehe

After the university orientation, hall orientation, finally it's the school orientation.
We were forced to go by our seniors. Even though they said it's compulsory for freshies, some just ignore them. =p

Of all the places in Malaysia, they chose a cave.



When we reached there, the seniors had already set up the tents ready for us to move in.



That was my first experience staying in a tent. It's not bad actually until the seniors said 4 persons had to stay in a tent. Uh...
And my tent had a stone beneath it. Crap...My back was pain the next day.



That night, we were divided into a few groups. Then we named our group Stalagtic after a deposit, usually of calcium carbonate, more or less resembling an inverted stalactite, formed on the floor of a cave or the like by the dripping of percolating calcareous water. But of course we change the spelling because we are a bunch of creative guys.




It's either that or we got the spelling wrong. Haha...



It was all about group presentation the whole night.
The seniors reminded those who wanted to take a morning bath to wake up earlier.
I woke up damn early and I spent like half an hour in the bathroom. Keke.
The guy waiting for me outside was damn pissed off. Don't blame me. Blame the stupid water. It was dripping not flowing.
Then it was the exercise session.



Then the game begins.



We started off a total stranger. We don't know each other but we bonded almost instantly.



From shoulder to shoulder, we overcame obstacles.



We danced together.



We enjoyed each other's company.



Then we tried to blow each other up. =p



That night, we went jungle trekking. They blindfolded us and brought us to some secluded places around the area. Then they made noises thinking that it's going to scare us.



Sorry...it didn't work.
Keke...



The next day it was time to go back to the buggy campus.



We packed...



Took pictures...



Then we were ready to go...



That was just the beginning of our 4 years journey.

This entry is a bit messy.
I'll try my best to make it more interesting at my next entry.
Until then...see ya!!

There's Never An End...Or Is There?

2 more weeks and it is the end of this semester.
No more classes, no more quizzes and no more hanging around with friends like the past 4 years.

3 more weeks: FYP submission.
Still on the way but a long way to go.

6 more weeks, exam's over!!!
It's not the end yet.

7 more weeks: FYP presentation (or we call it VIVA).
After that, no more university life. It's the end.

When I first applied for this course, I thought it was offered in University Science Malaysia in Penang Island.
Never did I know the existence of University Science Malaysia, Penang Mainland.
But I came anyway. Not that I have a choice.
It's a new campus with no entertainment around the area.

I dreaded Monday and waiting for Friday, all the time.
After 1st year, the time seems to past a bit more faster.

2nd year: I started to get used to the life here.

3rd year: Interesting and memorable one too. I started to enjoy myself more. I learned how to skip classes...keke. I don't know what the lecturers (some of the lecturers) were teaching though.
And my results started to drop too. But never mind.

4th year (final year): Results keep dropping...=p. Maybe will increase, a bit.
Have faith...I still have this final semester!
But I enjoyed more compared to the previous 3 years. There was less class to attend, but...
I still skipped it most of the time. Haha...

I can't wait to leave this university...
it's the people who make me not wanting to leave this university.

Friends will remain friends...
There's never an end....Or is there?

Penangites have voted...

It's time to change. That's what we Penangites voted for.

8.30pm and there are already rumours saying that the opposition parties have won most of the state seats. Election Commission (EC) did not announce anything yet. Rumours has it that the outgoing Chief Minister Tan Sri Dr. Koh has been defeated. After a few hours, he held a press conference announcing his lost to the opposition parties. Now that the opposition parties have won, we don't call them opposition parties anymore. They are the new state government of Penang. The oppositon party in the state would be the Barisan Nasional (BN), I guess.

3 nominees of Chief Minister in Penang have been defeated. Last month, they were fighting for the post. Now they can't even retain their post. Life sucks!

BN was shock when they lost Penang. They predict a minor lost but a total handover to the opposition parties is beyond their expectation. Various development plans are already planned in Penang before the General Election. The thing is, do we want this development?
Maybe all we want is a sustainable development.

With the new state government taking over, they have the right to cancel any plans. We don't know what are their plans yet.

New government will be formed tomorrow.
Democratic Action Party (DAP) is the state government of Penang.

No one knows what will happen next.
I know I need newspaper every morning from tomorrow onwards.

Before that,  let's see what they have to offer.

Sarah Why? 2

It's about time for Sarah Why? 2.
I guess this is the most anticipated entry in this blog.

This time I have a picture of her promoting a camera...hehe
She always said it's not about the camera.
I disagree. It's about the camera all the time.

Between a square Sarah..
And a hot, sexy, fair skin covered in a black shirt with an innocent look camera..
How do you choose?
I prefer the camera.
Everyone loves the camera.



She had a minor operation a week ago.
Viral infection is to be blamed.
It's been troubling her for years.
The doctor took out a pimple-like thingy from her arm.

Now that the infection is gone, the wound starts to haunt her.
She may look tough but she's like any other girls.
Afraid of pain.
Complaining about a tiny little wound.

4 stitches.
That's all we need to soften a girl.

KH told Sarah there are similarities between my blog and Sarah's.
Yes. It's 90% similar.
I'm not creative enough to think of a new way to write a blog.

I need to stop writing about her and start writing about me.
It's time to give her a break...keke
So goodbye Sarah!!!

Friend or Foe?

You have a secret.
You tell a friend.

He/She told someone else.
He/She thinks it'll be secret between them.

You found out.
You promised yourself never to tell your friend any secrets anymore.

He/She apologized.
He/She accepted your decision.

After a while...

You told your friend another secret.
You believed he/she has changed.

He/She told someone else.
He/She regretted what he/she did.

You were angry.
You promised never to tell he/she any secrets anymore.

He/She apologized again.
He/She believed that you will never tell him/her any secrets anymore.

Do you think he/she deserves another chance?
Is he/she a friend or a foe?

Friend? Not a trust-worthy friend perhaps.
Then why give him/her another chance in the first place?

Foe? Maybe.
But a good listener too.

How do you decide?

Chap Goh Meh

Every year when it comes to Chap Goh Meh, I had this indescribable feelings.
It's not sad and it's not happy either.

I just don't want Chinese New Year to be over so soon.
Last year I made my friend wish me Happy CNY before 12am. Haha.
It's 10.15pm now.

I'm still half way through my Final Year Project report.
Not much time left.
My supervisor said if I work like a donkey, I would be able to finish it.

From tomorrow onwards, I'm going to work like a donkey for the next 2 months.
Why donkey?
I don't know.




I could be a cow, but if my supervisor said donkey, he must have his own reason.
Why not tortoise?
Tortoises are slow. Even when making love.




They are smart though.I'm still listening to chinese new year song.
One hour left.
Happy Chinese New Year.
Gong Xi Fa Cai.
May you all have a wonderful ratty year.




Bray bray.

Aftermath.

The picture of us after the interview. See how relieved we were after the interview.



Smiles everywhere.
And of course a bit tired.

The interviewers were nice though. It was like chatting with a senior with the exception that we need to impress them.


The interview was held at Mandarin Oriental Hotel in KL.
A 5 star hotel located at Kuala Lumpur City Centre (KLCC) not far away from Malaysia's tallest (or world's tallest?) buildings, the 88-storey Petronas Twin Towers.

No reply from the company yet.

It's been 2 weeks.
Hopefully by next week I'll receive good news from them.

Either it's good or bad I won't react like my fren did.

=p.

Happy Mousy Year!!!

One entry before CNY...

Just came back from KL yesterday...=p
The interview wasn't that bad after all. I don't think I impressed the interviewer but it was a good try...

It was a tiring journey yet a fun one of course with a group of my course mates. Actually almost half of us were reluctant to attend the interview considering the offers the company might give. Anyway we attended the interview. Haha.

No pictures to upload yet. I'll try to put more pictures on my next entry.

My friend JH told me that he won't date any gals in one year time. We'll see. Let's see what happen next. I say he will definitely found one in 6 months time. He's to desperate for a gal.

My dad's coming to fetch me. I haven't packed!!!

Happy Mousy Year!!!
Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

Final Semester of Final Year

This is it!!!

I'm graduating this coming May...

...if I don't fail any subjects =p
...if I'm able to finish my final year project
...and if I stay out of troubles


it's been hard..
after spending more than 15 years studying
finally it is time to meet the world
it is not that I'm not competitive
the world is just too complicated...


the world i live in for the past 23 years have taught me a lot of lessons
but will it be useful?
or the world is far more evil than what i used to think =(


people tend to be selfish when things go wrong...
or maybe hoping someone to be there when the world turns you down is just too much
life without hope is meaningless...
life without regret is meaningless too..i guess


so let us hope for the best and learn from our regrets...

Sarah Why?

I'm supposed to do a bit of intro about myself.


But i have a friend of mine whom i would like you all to meet first.

Let me introduce you to sarah y...

You can call her zi (as in pon & zi)

She was my roomate classmate back in Form Six.

She's not very tall and she's not very p****y either keke

No la...

In fact, she attracts a lot of guys in which i can't even think of a single reason why =p

She graduated from NTU, Singapore with a first class honor degree. A real smart-ass who studies few days before exam and scored with flying colors.

She likes to plays pool. Maybe holding a more than 7 inches cue hitting balls makes her excited.

She asked me to say that she's a good gal
and that she's the bestest gal in the world.

I doubt that. =)

And she asked me to check grammatical and spelling error. She hates spelling error.

Worse than my mom. My mom never ask me to do that. =p

And...i think that's all about her....for now keke

there'll be Sarah Why 2...

the msn keeps blinking...it must be her =)

Yes...i'm posting it now!

Happy New Year

Happy 2008 Year!

I've been having this account for a while

It's just that I can't seems to put everything into words

And this new year, I just want to do something new
At least to me it's new =p


So Happy New Year!